I hate this!

I really hate this feeling. I hate the feeling of being mad or upset or whatever! My sister had to have emergency surgery tonight. The surgery went well but she is still in the hospital and still in pain. I told her I would stay with her tomorrow but I'm supposed to work. I want so badly to just call in and tell them I can't make it but now I feel like if I do that my husband will be upset and that makes me even more mad inside. I wish I could just have support in doing this but I guess not. Anyway, that's all!